it’s sad today

I am not sure that I maybe should post this or not. But today, my daughter makes a decision that affects me. She is making the best one for her life and situation right now. It is the same as I would have made if I were in her shoes at her age. Or my age now. I am sad that she even ever had to make the decision, but I know that this guy is a deadbeat absent non-existant dad already, and will be that with her the minute that they break up, which won’t be long after birth. So she is terminating a 4 week pregnancy today.
We’ll mourn for a day, then tomorrow she has to go turn herself in for violation of probation in Manchester, her dad is taking her to that, and hope that the PO in Manchester was telling her the right thing in saying that she would probably not get put into jail, since she has no FTA and will let her out on her own. On Monday she starts down at OIC in the culinary arts program, for 12 weeks of training. Her job waitressing at a sports grill in the casino has been just plain horrible. There is no one in the casinos. Businesses are closing left and right. She expected to make 50-60 per shift. She makes 20-30. Not even minimum wage. Totally not worth the wear and tear on her.
With all of that, I am prepping for a few days with my parents. oh joy. Right after I finish up some work today, I have to go find a wireless router to use on their cable connection. I’ll need my laptop so that I am not driven crazy by them. I have a few things left to get for tday. I am SOOOOO not into it this year. I think I looked forward to having it here, and not having to drive all that way. Same for christmas. I want it here. I’ve driven elsewhere on christmas eve, every single fucking year. I want it at my house again, forever. there… ho ho ho
so sad.