quietness, rage, and being me

been quiet this week. had the computer crap out again yesterday, spent all day trying things, just to have to go back to one monitor until I get the new mobo in. Sucks. but been just staying quiet, trying to figure out if the rage of Tuesday evening has any chance of re-appearing soon. It was not pretty, but it was true. once I come to terms with it, I can maybe figure out what to do regarding the future of Mike and me. until then, he can stay scared. Very scared.